I got to chat with Cheri last night. That was fun. I have made so many good friends at wah. If you are a Christian woman you must go visit the boards. The women there are so much fun and yet so real in their relationship with Christ. Even if you are not a Christian woman go visit anyway.

Still not sure what we are doing about the concert tomorrow. We are trying to give the tickets away. Sorry, Dana. If you were here I'd give them to you.

Want to see what I bought my mom for Mother's Day? Here it is. I got her the medium one in the pink with her name monogramed on it. Then, being the ever so clever person that I am, filled it with all kinds of things that are from Georgia. (My mom is in Oregon!) I bought country grits and peach preserves from Callaway Gardens. A Southern cookbook. Yankee candles, Peach scented. Another candle that was made here in GA and the fragrance is called Kudzu Blossom. (You cannot get any more Georgian that Kudzu!) Lots of pecan candies and stuff like that. Knowing my mother she won't be at all impresed though!:) I'm quite certain that Olaf hasn't bought my Mother's Day present yet. I have been indecisive in telling him exactly what I want. I used to just let him buy me whatever he wanted and every year it was the same thing. A candle or Bath and Body Works. Nice gifts, don't get me wrong. But sometimes a little variation is good. Now I just tell him what I want! LOL! Last year I hinted heavily at the lilac bush. Oh, I drove by our old house yesterday. We planted lilac bushes there when we first moved in so they are 11 years old now. They were HUGE! I went up to the house and talked to the people that live there and asked if I could cut a few. They smell wonderful. Olaf did such a great job landscaping our first home. A friend from New York sent us three lilac bushes through a nursery as a house warming gift. I wish we would have dug them up and taken them when we moved 7 years ago. Olaf wants to drive by the house and see the fruition of his work! He will be proud.

Olaf is still sleeping. He'll be grumpy when he gets up. If he sleeps in, he is not in a good mood. And he is tired all day too. Oh well. I feel sorry for the man because he rarely gets more than 6 hours sleep a night. He's working on 10 right now!

Have a wonderful weekend!

Finally Friday

Olaf won tickets last night from a local Christian radio station to go see Steven Curtis Chapman, TobyMac, Tree 63, and Chris Tomlin. I have no idea who TobyMac or Chris Tomlin are though. It is this Sunday and I'm not sure if we will go or give the tickets away. We don't "do" babysitters (especially at night) but we need to make a decision soon. Olaf would be more than happy to stay home and let me go with three friends, but I'm not sure if I even want to do that.

Josiah is feeling better. Thank you for praying for him. I have another prayer request. My friend, Karen, is 32 or 33 years old and has five young children. Her liver and spleen are very enlarged and she is in a lot of pain. She is waiting to get in for a liver biopsy next week. Please pray the the Lord will heal her and give her peace in all of this. The gastro doctor seemed very concerned. She is vomiting a lot and has swelling in her legs as well. It just doesn't look good, but we KNOW that God is who He says He is and He can DO what He says He can do! Praise God.

I go back Monday for the rest of my root canal. Oh joy. I am on antibiotics right now because of the pain. The dentist thought it may be infected.

Have a great day!

Caleb at Special Olympics!

Ready, Set, GO!

Softball Throw

First Place Softball Throw

Josiah has

strep throat. I took him to Urgent Care on Saturday and his throat looked horrible. The doctor put him on Zithromax. He still has a fever and isn't acting 100%, but he is better than he was. He still wants me to hold him ALL THE TIME. He wants to sleep with me as well. He wakes up in his crib and calls for his Mama. His fever is the worst at night, so of course I bring him to bed with us:) I am praying the rest of the crew doesn't get it. My entire family has a propensity for strep throat.

I weighed in and am down 1.6 pounds. I updated my weight loss blog. Can't say enough about how much I love the FIRM. I know, I know...I sound like a broken record.

I had an incident today where I really blew it. I mean, I totally sinned. I chose it, reveled in it (for the moment) and feel like crap now. It was against my children too which makes it even worse. I absolutely hate it when I discipline the children when I am angry. That is just sinful on my part. Disipline should never be done in anger. I said awful things and spanked them in anger, not because I was trying to train them in righteousness. Boy I hate it when I blow it like that.

I need to go. Josiah is on my lap. He will not leave me a lone for a flippin' minute! Trying to type this around him is driving me insane. Hopefully I can post tomorrow while he is in bed.

Good night, Good night,
until we meet again,
Adios, Au revoir, Auf Wiedersehen 'til then.
And though it's always sweet sorrow to part
You'll know you'll always remain in my heart.
Good night, sleep tight
and pleasant dreams to you.
Here's a wish and a prayer
That every dream comes true.
And now 'til we, meet again,
Adios, Dobranoc, Auf Wiedersehen.
Goodnight!!!

That song is from my favorite TV Show of all time. Do you know what it is?

EDIT: Jenn guessed correctly in the comment section! It's Lawrence Welk! I honestly love that show and want to go to Branson just to go to the Lawrence Welk theater there. I am a complete dork.

Josiah has a fever. No other sypmtoms. Just a fever. I feel sorry children when they have fevers. He is acting perfectly normal when he is on this, but when it wears off you can tell he doesn't feel well. Maybe it will be roseola or chicken pox. Only time will tell. If you will pray for him, I'd appreciate it.

The weekend is here. Caleb has a baseball game tomorrow morning. I met with his teacher today for our IEP meeting. He will be switching teachers next year. I LOVE his current teacher. She is awesome. But she is going back to school to get her Masters Degree. I really like his teacher that he will have next year too, so I'm happy.

Remember I had to go to the dentist yesterday? Well, I ended up needing a root canal. He got most of it complete but I need to go back to have him finish it up. Then May 26th I go in again for the crown appointment. Fun, fun, fun. Not to mention that I am paying over $700 OUT OF POCKET! I cried when I had to tell Olaf that I needed a root canal on top of the crown. I feel so horrible for having to spend that kind of money on a tooth. After this crown is done I won't go back to this dentist. I don't like his bedside manner at all.

Oh girlfriends! My metabolism is on the upswing. I think I lost another 2 pounds this week. I think the FIRM is finally starting to "kick in" and those muscles are revving my metabolism. WooHoo!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Lilacs in clay

My husband bought a lilac bush for me last year for Mother's Day. The owner of the nursery tried to discourage him. "Lilacs just don't grow in clay."  But Olaf knew lilacs are my very favorite flower, so he bought it anyway. We lovingly planted it last spring and by the fall, it was looking very dead. Olaf put compost all around it, cut it back to a single twig and we waited through winter. Now my glorious twig of a lilac bush has sprouted several flowers.When we lived in California and New York, there were the most gorgeous lilac bushes everywhere. The were huge and fragrant. I missed them. Until a few weeks ago...when my own lilacs bloomed. God's miracle just for me.

Holy Pontiff and other ponderings...

His official Latin title is Pontifex Maximus, originally the title of the chief of the ancient pre-Christian Roman high priests or "bridge-builders." Pope Benedict XVI has been elected as the new Pontiff of the Catholic Church. Let's all pray for the man!

Sorry I haven't blogged for awhile. Something always sweeps me away (namely four children and one husband) and I don't seem to get "back to what I was doing." I weighed in last night. I was pleased.

Olaf's cardiologist appointment is scheduled for May 5th? So please pray about that as well. I'm believing God! Which brings me to another topic...Believing God. I am doing the Beth Moore study online and it is really good! I finished watching the week three video and it has really hit home with me this week. The two points that have really stuck with me are:
1. Keep believing God for a miracle and
2. give Him every opportunity through your faith to perform the one you desire.
That doesn't mean He WILL give me my miracle, but it won't stop me from believing He will! And when He does answer me I can KNOW that His answer is BETTER than anything I can request. Hallelujah!

I have a dentist appointment on Thursday. I need a new crown. I am not excited about going, but I know it will only get worse if I don't go. I don't like to think about it because I get a bit nervous, so I'm changing the subject now.

I think we are going to CiCi's for dinner this evening. I will have a salad and probably two slices of pizza. For lunch I had flour tortillas (3 points for two) with pinto beans (1 point for 1/2 cup) and cheese (3 points.) They were yummy. I did my new cardio workout and fumbled through the step aerobics. I rewound it and watched her do that part again. I am hoping in a few more workouts I will be an old pro at it! In the meantime I feel like I'm missing half the workout! I can't wait for my TansFIRMer to get here! I still haven't seen the infomercial and I really want to see Carla on it! She is MY inspiration!

If you can pray for Katie Rose, I'd appreciate it. This is one of my daughter's penpals in California. What a precious little girl. We want to go out and visit her but have not contacted the family about it yet. She is in San Diego so it would be a long trip for Camille and myself.

My friend Mari is sending me clothes! I love free clothes. Better still, these clothes are all from Nordstrom! WooHoo! I have never bought a thing in that store so I feel like a kid in a candy shop. Hopefully they will only fit me through the summer then I will be too small for them. I will certainly pass them on to another grateful soul though. And Mari, if you are reading, I *heart* you!

Have a blessed day everyone.

I got it!

I got my FIRM Body Sculpting System 3 today. The one I bought off eBay. I also ordered BSS4 a few days ago, so I am going FIRM crazy! I really want to see the new infomercial. It aired for the first time this morning on Lifetime, but I missed it. Carla is in it and she is the reason I started doing the FIRM in the first place! She lost 114 pounds doing the FIRM and Weight Watchers. You must take a look at her site. Scroll down for before and after pictures! She was chosen to be one of the testimonials in the new infomercial. She is a Christian and homeschools to boot! I can't wait to use my new FIRM Box tomorrow. I already did my workout today before the mail arrived or I'd do it tonight! I also mowed our lawn today, so I had my exercise for the day. OK, are you completely bored stiff now or what? Isn't is silly how I can get so excited about exercising?

Tonight we are having Smokey Bones for supper. Olaf was craving it, so he will be picking it up for supper after Caleb's baseball pictures tonight. He needs to go to WalMart to pick up a few things as well so we will be eating late for us. Our dinner time is usually between 4:30-5:00 pm, but I doubt he'll be home before 7 pm this evening. I guess the children will go to bed late this evening. Oh yeah, they will because the Little House series is on this evening.

Bloglines is not working for me. It won't let me log in so I 'm not sure what is going on. I have to figure that out. And Penny's blog is completely missing and I've lost the link to Rebekah's blog. So Penny and Rebekah, please leave me links to your blogs!

Off to do...something...maybe nothing at all! Maybe read my "An Encouraging Word" which I need to renew!

Another medical post

My husband went to the doctor today for his chest pain. They are making an appointment for him to go see a cardiologist. They did an EKG in the office and there was a whole host of things "wrong" with it. On the print out it even says it looks like he could have had a heart attack already. Of course, I'm just jello inside. I can't even express how I'm feeling except to say all I want to do is cry. I know that I shouldn't cross those bridges before I get to them, but that is just my flesh taking over. Just pray for Olaf and for me. I need peace, he needs healing!

Naked children

We just got home from Camille's last JMG and my littlest two are running around the house butt naked. Olaf gave them a bath while we were gone and neither one of them want to get dressed. Why do little children like to be naked so much? I have a theory regarding nakedness. Mind you, it is a Misty-ism and not doctrine. However, I kind of believe that when a child notices his nakedness it is his age of accountability. When a child no longer wants to be naked around other people, I think they have realized their sin nature. Think about it, after Adam and Eve sinned they realized they were naked and tried to cover themselves. Go ahead and laugh...but it's my theory and I'm stickin' to it!

We ate at Golden's for supper. I got the usual. Vegetable plate. Cabbage, fried green tomatoes, and sweet potato casserole. Something green, something orange, and something FRIED! I didn't do the FIRM today. I wanted to do the abs and I may when the children go to bed. I am totally and completely 100% SOLD on the FIRM! I have seen incredible results in my fat ole body. Someday there will be a before and after picture on my weight loss blog. I just ordered their newest body sculpting system that isn't even out yet. They offered it to their online community and I took full advantage of it! I won't get it for weeks though. In the meantime I am using BSS1 and loving it! It is hard and I cannot do every exercise correctly, but I get a little better everyday. And just so you know, when this girl hits menopause when there is no chance for babies, I am SO getting a boob job! The whole kit-n-kaboodle. Instead of a 38 LONG I want to be a 38D! However, breastfeeding my babies are more important to me so I will wait and endure these not-so-perky girls for another 10 years.

With that piece of information, I am signing off! And really hoping that my daughter and her friend don't read this entry! ::blushing::

Tachycardia and other medical terms I wish I didn't know

In case you didn't know this about me, I am pretty much qualified to be a lay midwife. There is no doubt in my mind that I could give quality prenatal care, deliver a baby and do an infant assessment. Heck, even a nine year old could do that under normal circumstances. Because I was infertile for so long, I read every piece of literature about the human reproductive system. Then when I decided to have a homebirth, I read every piece of literature (including medical textbooks) about the birth process. In the process of learning all of this wonderful "stuff" I have grown too big for my britches. Now I think I am a doctor (Cheryl, do not tell Schawn) and I readily diagnose my family with ills and such that I *think* they have. Prime example...today. I have noticed on several occasions that Joiah's heart rate seems really high (tachycardia). Last night I took his pulse (with a real stethoscope that was a gift because I wanted to be a real doctor) while he was sleeping and it was 93-100. Today while watching TV it was 120-136. I know toddler numbers are higher than an adult, but the average toddler heart rate is in the 90's. 136 seems a bit excessive to me. I put in a call to my pediatrician and they assured me that 136 isn't too high. So, I guess I will relax a little, but not too much. You know why? I think I know more than most doctor's anyway! I wonder if I could just test to be a doctor and skip medical school? Hmmm...

This morning I went back to bed after Caleb got on the bus. Josiah and I slept until 9:30 am! WOW! That was really nice. The girls got up and were very quiet. I am still sitting in my pj's but Camille did get her school done. I also cleaned up some clutter, dusted, changed sheets (I despise changing sheets on the bunkbeds)and have done several loads of laundry. I need to clean toilets and tubs next.

Tomorrow is Camille's last Junior Master Gardener. She is sad about that because she really enjoyed the program. We will still go out and help with the vegetable garden at the fairgrounds though. Caleb has a baseball game this Friday night, CORRAL on Saturday and baseball pictures Saturday afternoon. Olaf has a doctor's appointment on Thursday because he has had pains in his heart on two different occasions. The kind of pain that makes him clutch his chest. I told him that he HAD to make an appointment. I have never claimed to be a cardiologist, just a midwife;)

The dryer just buzzed notifying me of another bed that needs to be made with clean sheets. Mine! Pray for all of us if you would.

Great News!

Olaf found the carpenter ant nest and killed them! WooHoo! They were behind insulation in our basement above the exterior door. He said it was a fairly large nest and the queen was huge. I chose NOT to go down and look at it. Yuck! We have never seen the ants in our basement though. Only upstairs directly above the nest. They were looking for food, I'm sure.

Today was a nice day. Olaf took Camille and Molly to plant the vegetable garden at the fairgrounds. I stayed home with my boys and we worked on the yard a bit. I also cleaned up the garage a little. Caleb was a big help. He wheeled the wheelbarrow around for me and was very helpful. If I give him specific tasks to do and give him a lot of praise, he is a big help!

I think we are heading down to Callaway Gardens tomorrow if the weather cooperates. We love it down there. It is so relaxing. And the butterfly center has reopened since they did the renovation. That should be fun. Except for Camille. She is afraid of butterflies so she waits for us at the exit while we go in and look at the beauty of God's creation. She has always been afraid of butterflies. She says their wings look evil and scary. Go figure. She'll ride a horse that could easily throw her or stomp on her, but don't let a butterfly come near her!

The children just finished watching the ABC presentation of "Little House" tonight. The Indian in it scared Grace a little so I think she may have a bad dream tonight. We'll see. Oh I can just see you "negative confession" people wincing right now.

Josiah just loves this! I got it at TJ Maxx for $25. He plays with it all day long. We go through a lot of these! He is Thomas crazy!

Donna did something fun on her blog a couple of days ago. She did a virtual tour of products she uses around her home. It was fun. I will do that when I have more free time to look up all that stuff. I did enough of it tonight!:)

Have a great day tomorrow!

Did a little test to see what "denomination" I most agree with. No surprise for me! I picked it up from Donna's blog.

Rank Item Percent
1: Anabaptist (Mennonite/Quaker etc.) (100%)
2: Baptist (non-Calvinistic)/Plymouth Brethren/Fundamentalist (93%)
3: Pentecostal/Charismatic/Assemblies of God (79%)
4: Eastern Orthodox (70%)
5: Methodist/Wesleyan/Nazarene (66%)
6: Baptist (Reformed/Particular/Calvinistic) (55%)
7: Anglican/Episcopal/Church of England (53%)
8: Congregational/United Church of Christ (53%)
9: Lutheran (53%)
10: Presbyterian/Reformed (52%)
11: Church of Christ/Campbellite (51%)
12: Seventh-Day Adventist (51%)
13: Roman Catholic (47%)

FRIDAY

First off, if you haven't checked out Caleb's Quilt of Love (in the sidebar) please do it. These sweet volunteers make these quilts for children who have any type of special needs. And make sure the volume is up when you view the page. It is very sweet. I sent in a little survey telling them what kinds of things Caleb likes and they wrote a poem for him and put together this "quilt." If you know any child with special needs all you have to do is request a quilt and they will do one for you.

Well, it's Friday. This week has been long for me. Maybe because Caleb was home and I was out of my routine, maybe because I've had a pissy attitude all week, maybe because ???? Who knows? Tomorrow Camille is supposed to go help plant the vegetable garden at the fairgrounds from 1-3. I am thinking maybe Olaf can take her. He would enjoy that more than I would. There is a horse demonstration going on at a local stable tomorrow and we might stop by there for a bit. Ha Ha! For a bit! Another pun I didn't intend! Olaf has to spray for the carpenter ants that are invading our home, that's for sure.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Ruffling feathers

I think this post may ruffle a few feathers, but I'm game! LOL! Game...get it?? Anyway, it is copied from Doug Phillips blog from Vision Forum.

Releasing Sons and Daughters
From a biblical perspective, children (throughout the course of their entire life)remain under the counsel of their godly parents. But they are only under the command of their parents while they remain a member of their father's household and under his protection, provision and oversight.

There is a great deal of overlap in the training of sons and fathers. But the distinctions are crucial. A key distinction between sons and daughters concerns the goals of their preparation and release. The training of sons should focus on preparing them for independent household leadership. To be qualified for marriage sons must demonstrate their ability to leave their fathers, and stand as a capable, independent household leader. Daughters demonstrate the opposite. The training of daughters should focus on their ability to remain under the authority of a household leader. Daughters who are trained, industrious, content, capable and comfortable serving beside their fathers (as they will someday serve beside their husbands)demonstrate that they are ready for marriage.

Under normal conditions, neither sons nor daughters are capable of emancipating themselves. Sons leave "for this cause" when they are released by their fathers to do so. This release may include a time to "prepare their fields" before they build their houses, but the goal is to see our sons established in independent household leadership.

Daughters are "given" by their fathers in marriage. The normative pattern is that daughters remain under the authority, protection and provision of their godly fathers who have as a primary duty of their fatherhood the charge to protect their virginity, prepare them for marriage and someday present them spotless to a groom. Because they are women under the authority, provision, protection and "roof" of their father, they can not independently contract or covenant without the blessing of the head of household.(Numbers 30)

Remembering that sons leave and daughters are "given" in marriage, an important question for modern Christian fathers to ask is this: "How can I give my daughter away, when I have already directed her to leave?"

To put it another way: How do you seriously intend to give away that which you have already released?

True, we can have a healthy debate about just what constitutes a father releasing his daughter into a state of independence. Is it allowing her to pick and choose various experimental romantic relationships? Is it the act of sending her away from home for four years? Is it having her moving to another city and provide for herself?

There should be no real debate that each step of abdication or potential misdirection on the part of modern fathers pushes the women God has entrusted to their care, protection and provision further from the biblical ideal. To the extent that modern Christian girls are trained for independent leadership, they are being trained to be men.

The modern Christian family is double minded and thus unstable in all of its ways. It wants to borrow the feminist vision for training and releasing daughters, while enforcing a code of parental authority which presupposes the principles of biblical patriarchy.

Modern fathers living in a post-Christian, feminized America must make a choice. They can not have it both ways. They can not, on the one hand, release their daughters into a state of manly independence, and on the other hand, demand of them submission to their parental authority. This confusion has resulted in many daughters who are provoked to wrath because they simply don't know where they stand or what is expected of them.

Dad's it's time to love our sons and daughters enough that we will go back to the ancient paths wherein there is hope.

I got my bleaching trays for my teeth yesterday. They gave me expired bleach! I used it last night anyway. I think I can tell a difference in one application. I am calling them this morning to see if I can get some bleach that isn't expired. I think they gave me expired bleach on purpose. If you remember, they said they would match the offer I received from another dentist. At first they said they were going to charge me for the bleach and I told them no way. The other dentist was going to give me 4 tubes of bleach for free. When I picked up the trays yesterday, they gave me 2 tubes of bleach that expired 2-2005. I have a crown appointment scheduled with them that I think I am going to cancel anyway. They are not a preferred provider on our insurance and I can save $150 if I go elsewhere. Did anyone even understand all that rambling?

Today is homeschool choir. I'm not sure how Caleb will do being bored for an hour. He hates not "doing" something. That is why he doesn't like being home. At school he "does" things all day. He has already asked several times this morning to ride the bus and when I answer that he is on Spring Break, he replies with "Papa home." Which means, I really don't want you Mom. I want my Dad. My children call Olaf "Papa." That was his choice when we had children. He always wanted to be called Papa, so he is. It's cute to hear the children say Papa when they are little. Like just learning how to talk. It's a soft whisper as they learn to say that "p" sound. Precious.

I'm getting hungry. I need to eat before I feel ravenous! I think I'll have an english muffin with laughing cow cheese. 4 points I think. Today is my rest day with the FIRM. I may take a walk or do some cardio, but no weights today. I just bought the FIRM System 3 off Ebay. She has never sold anything before, so I'm hoping I don't get rooked. I had to send a cashiers check. The new Firm System is out. I found out yesterday, one day after I bought the old system on Ebay! I guess I wasn't supposed to get the new one yet:)

Need to run...

Did you notice my eyebrows?

I bet you did if you have an eye for fashion. I have the world's bushiest eyebrows. I wax them between my eyes so I don't have a unibrow, but I refuse to "shape" them. I'm not into pain. At all. I wonder what I would look like if I did shape them up a bit? Feedback from the fashion pros please. Also, do I look like someone you know? Maybe an aunt or a friend or your cousin? I seem to have a "familiar" face. Mari just said so in a comment down below. And it isn't the first time. I have been told more times than I can count that I look like someone. I have been told several times that I look like Jamie Lee Curtis. I don't see that at all. (But boy howdy I wish!) I have also been told that I look like Carly Simon. I think it's my big mouth, but I think she's pretty so I take that as a compliment. And once, someone told me I look like Katarina Witt. I'm NOT complaining people. *Ü*

Olaf is moving now. He will be going to work tomorrow. He is still in pain, but at least he can walk. Caleb is on spring break this week and the time change has thrown the schedule off kilter a bit. Josiah is behind me playing with his Thomas set and it's pushing 10:00 pm. I have no idea when he will actually go to bed. And to top it off, I am SO craving chocolate. I want a big old candy bar of some sort. With that being said, I am really going to try to stay on points next week. I have to lose the rest of this weight. I'm half way there and I am not quitting now.

I started the Believing God Bible Study with the Women at Home gals. I think it will be good for me. I even have a blinkie that Becky made!

She is so awesome. I love Becky and I have never met her in person.

It's late and I need to get that child in bed. Many blessings to all of you. And don't forget to post a comment regarding the eyebrows!

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Little buses

My son rides the mini bus. You know, the one that kids make fun of. I just came in from getting him safely on the bus and was thinking about how happy he is to see it coming. Caleb loves the bus! He always has. He prefers the BIG bus, but any bus will do. Even the shuttle buses that take you from the Park and Ride to the airport. It is raining this morning so I ran to the bus with him carrying an umbrella over his head. The entire time he was trying to run faster than me and laughing and drooling all the way. Whenever my big guy laughs, drool pours from his mouth. We try to catch it before it happens by saying "close your lips" and sometimes it works. But when he is really laughing, laughing because Mama is trying to beat him to the bus, he drools. And he's loud. He doesn't care that it is 6:40 am. If he is laughing, he is laughing LOUD. I wish I were like that. Finding incredible joy over the littlest things. Like a bus. Or running in the rain.

And yet, his "quality of life" isn't what a doctor would term as "normal." Perhaps we should end his suffering by withholding all food and water. Yes, let's starve him to death. It's the only compassionate thing to do afterall. Certainly you wouldn't want to live like that. He cannot speak, write, read, or care for his personal needs. He will be a burden to society. Yes, let's murder him. That's the most compassionate thing we can do.