Sunday, May 30, 2010

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Oh my...

Life. It happens so fast. My children are done with yet another year of school. I will have a HIGH SCHOOLER next year. Whaaaat? Where did the time go? I am begging her to go to public school. She is resisting because she thinks she will be a failure. Her self esteem is non-existent and I am to blame somehow; I am sure of it. She thinks she is ugly, stupid, and not worth anyone's time or attention. She is fourteen. I hope someday she realizes how precious she is, but I think it will be long time coming.

Then I will have a fourth grader who hates everything about school. She really doesn't want to go to public school because she realizes that she would be stuck in a classroom for 7 hours and she is NOT having that. At all. No thank you. She would rather be out playing and riding her bike and her scooter and scraping her knees by falling on the driveway.

My Josiah will be in second grade. Another one who tolerates school and cannot wait for the "learning" to be over. "Mama, do I have to write my spelling words?" is the sentence I hear every single day. Ummm, yep. The answer never changes.

Caleb is staying in middle school one more year since he will attend public school until his 21st birthday. It makes sense to keep him in middle school four years before transitioning him to high school. It is time to think about Social Security, and Medicaid, and transitioning IEP's and lots of other stuff that most people will never have to deal with. Lucky us, we get to jump through a lot of legal red tape just to remain his guardian after he turns 18. And so it begins.

Life
is so short.

Enjoy
every breath.

Even
if it means
being true to yourself
when no one else
thinks that is a good idea.

Don't listen
to them.

Listen to
you...

Because you...
you alone...
are the only one who knows
what makes you
happy....